So, a friend of mine and I were talking about the craziness that has went on and how she feels that maybe she could have helped out in this situation. My ex boyfriend and his brother got into drugs and gave up on their jobs. My ex gave up on not only that but also his family. Me, the kids and also his own mother and siblings. He used to care enough to call his mother, eventhough he would call her drunk in the middle of the night when she was sleeping and she wouldn't be very happy about it. He hasnt talked to her since 2 weeks after our son was born 5 months ago. He left me and the kids with no car, no money and no phone. I couldn't for the life of me understand why he just gave up and didnt care about anything anymore. He will try to tell people he cares for his kids but to me, if you leave them with their mother and arent helping her out, then you dont care too much about your kids either. The mother cant take them to doctor appointments or get food or buy diapers without a car or money.
  Guess who had to fit the bill for a phone, a car and diapers? My parents. His side of the family hasn't offered to take us places or pay for minutes on my phone.
  As me and my friend were talking about though, there is nothing either one if us could do. I tried for 4 and a half years to keep my ex doing the right thing like helping him control his alcoholism. He wanted a family so I tried to protect that. Then, he decided alcohol wasnt good enough for him anymore so he resorted to meth. He will try to deny that he has anything to do with meth but there was a time not too long ago that i found some in his wallet and messages on his phone where he was going to buy a "teener". If anyone out there doeant know what that is, its 1.75 grams approximately. And yes, there were other signs of meth use like severe weightloss and he was very easily aggrivated. He would end up falling asleep anywhere at any time of the day or night and it would be impossible to wake him up. Sometimes he would be dead to the world for 24 hours. All these things point to meth use. For the amount of money he was going to buy this teener for, i was told by someone else who knows a little about that type of thing that it was meth. The meth i found in his wallet i gave to the cops and they told me that it was crystal meth also.  Ive always tried to give people the benifit of the doubt but when the evidence piles up like that, i have no choice but to assume the worst. And when theres solid proof of my assumptions thats when i know for sure no matter what excuses he makes. For the people who think, "Well, if i had done something different or maybe just ignored these things, then maybe i could have saved myself this stress or heartache". NO! Never live in a state of ignorance and never blame yourself for the stupid things other people do. Believe me, the other party will try to tell their friends that they have done nothing wrong and will try to make the innocent look crazy. Never fall for that either. The people that truly know you will never believe the crap that spews from the guilty party's mouth.

my first blog

Hello all! Im new to this blog thing but ive had so much drama in my life, i thought i might give it a try. I am starting this to give other people an idea of how certain things can either make life suck or even make it better. There are some things that i have been going through that i never thought i would have to deal with ever. Please share my bloh so i can get it out there.